Well, the snake of criticism of others has crept backed into my life with all of its sliminess.
Can I blame anyone? I think I can and then, on the other hand, I think I can't. I hear criticisms from all manner of persons and the main person is the one yammering on in my head and those words, those critical, supposing words roll out of my mouth sometimes and it's, well, very damaging to others.
And I go through seasons of being critical of others. There have been times when I really felt as if I had a hold on my mind and tongue concerning all matters critical, but here I am again and have been so many times along this journey...in the place of judgment over others, especially in my mind.
Can we think whatever we want to think, when and how we would like to think it? I guess we can. We can do whatever we want. But that thinking certainly shapes our brains. If we are thinking judgmentally of others constantly it will totally guide and direct many, many moves we make and many, many words we say. Scary, huh?
And my love for people, all people, deters in this state, this state of not seeing the soul of each person deep within and being compassionate, whatever their plight, knowing full well, that I would surely never fully know or comprehend the many details that brings a person to where they are in the present. We can't know it all nor can we be better than some or anyone. Better?
I haven't allowed myself to really "think" that actual sentence in my mind. "I am better than that person because of ______." I have never thought in those exact terms, but my self-righteous mind finds ways to pat myself on the proverbial back for its thoughts. Those thoughts are often congratulatory at the time they are thought. Later they are condemning. And I don't have to be religious, a church-goer or a supposed "Christian" to be self-righteous. I can be fully self-righteous without any of these expounding planks on which I need to stand and I have been doing fine by myself without those things to blame.
And here I am again for the billionth time...realizing where I am in my mind and wanting something else. I want this season of being critical to pass and never to return. For me that is a very ambitious idea considering where I came from, but nevertheless attainable, with time and patience. This is what I want in life...to be able to look at others, all others on equal footing and to have sympathy, empathy, compassion or understanding for that person, to not make much ado about all those things I do not know or to fill in the details for myself in order to make sense of something or that person. Yes, it's ambitious, but in my world it is expected and required, in my world with God.
I leave you with some thoughts a friend posted on facebook by Oswald Chambers: