I am not afraid of atheists. I am sure atheists can be some of the most conscientious, giving and kind people on the earth or so I've heard and I really mean no condescension when I say that. I don't deeply know too many atheists, but, frankly, I don't blame many of them for their stance. I look at all the confusion in the world around me in the "Christian" or religious world at large and it is definitely enough to drive a person to drink or drive you deep into a state of never wanting to think about "Christianity" or religion of any kind ever again and all the blame for people and their stupidity gets put on God. God takes the flack.
So many groups, people, ministries, churches, organizations have come in the particular name of Jesus, purporting their own thoughts as Christ's and have sat upon and squashed those who have followed their twisted teachings. And, yes, I do believe that is most of what makes up this particular group of people, the Jesus follower category. I have seen people leave "Christianity" or "church" or religion or Jesus to pursue atheism as a knee-jerk reaction to all they have endured in a severe, spiritually abusive environment. And, yes, I truly believe that many atheists throw off anything God or Jesus because they have been invloved in some seriously tainted versions of who God and Jesus really are.
I don't blame them. I don't agree with them, but I certainly don't blame them. I was this close to becoming an atheist myself. I was so sick of all that was put upon me in my religious world by others and by myself. The pressure, the stress, the strain and constant doubt in my mind about teachings that seemed so off and not like God in any way, it was all just too much. If anyone only knew what I went through to cause me to literally want to say there really isn't a God they wouldn't blame me either. The pain was so unbearable.
Even during my short attempt to believe there was no God, I knew that atheism couldn't heal what was really broken inside of me, the part of my soul that was bent up into a pretzel at the command of others. I had to chuck, purge and start completely over with God and yes, His son, Jesus Christ. I threw out mostly all that I had been taught, I began to find out what He really wants me to believe for the first time and not what some other person wants me to believe.
And, you, whoever you are, who have been so lied to, controlled, manipulated and spiritually abused by so many, your parents, your siblings, your "pastor", your neighbor, yourself, I dare say so much of what has been preached or taught to you about who God is blantantly flies in the face of His true self. Trust me, I also thought God was only my great, big judge in the sky, ready to pounce on me whenever I sinned. I had to beg Him for forgiveness for every single transgression because that's how I thought He rolled. Was He going to kill me if I didn't confess my sin right away? I'm serious.
Where did I get this stuff?
Somehow these thoughts were derived from my upbringing and the many years I spent under the teachings of others, who God is and what the bible said.
So, no, I don't blame atheists for being atheists in many cases. I only wish to convey my deepest, sincerest thought that I believe there truly is a God and the one portrayed to you is not Him and never will be. I truly believe there is a Jesus, the Son of God, that came to die for us and redeem us because He loved us. And, yes, I believe that His sacrifice for the world on the cross in love for us is the real deal and I do believe it can heal the most wounded souls or any soul upon the earth. The real and true Jesus I know can heal you. He totally healed me and brought me back to a place where I desired to also know God better. Get to know the real Him and, I assure you, everything you have been told or most of what you have been told about Him and His father just isn't true.
Atheism won't heal you, but I can't blame you for trying.