Atheism Won't Heal You

I am not afraid of atheists.  I am sure atheists can be some of the most conscientious, giving and kind people on the earth or so I've heard and I really mean no condescension when I say that.  I don't deeply know too many atheists, but, frankly, I don't blame many of them for their stance.  I look at all the confusion in the world around me in the "Christian" or religious world at large and it is definitely enough to drive a person to drink or drive you deep into a state of never wanting to think about "Christianity" or religion of any kind ever again and all the blame for people and their stupidity gets put on God.  God takes the flack.
So many groups, people, ministries, churches, organizations have come in the particular name of Jesus, purporting their own thoughts as Christ's and have sat upon and squashed those who have followed their twisted teachings.  And, yes, I do believe that is most of what makes up this particular group of people, the Jesus follower category.  I have seen people leave "Christianity" or "church" or religion or Jesus to pursue atheism as a knee-jerk reaction to all they have endured in a severe, spiritually abusive environment.  And, yes, I truly believe that many atheists throw off anything God or Jesus because they have been invloved in some seriously tainted versions of who God and Jesus really are.

I don't blame them.  I don't agree with them, but I certainly don't blame them.  I was this close to becoming an atheist myself.  I was so sick of all that was put upon me in my religious world by others and by myself.  The pressure, the stress, the strain and constant doubt in my mind about teachings that seemed so off and not like God in any way, it was all just too much.  If anyone only knew what I went through to cause me to literally want to say there really isn't a God they wouldn't blame me either.  The pain was so unbearable.

Even during my short attempt to believe there was no God, I knew that atheism couldn't heal what was really broken inside of me, the part of my soul that was bent up into a pretzel at the command of others.  I had to chuck, purge and start completely over with God and yes, His son, Jesus Christ.  I threw out mostly all that I had been taught, I began to find out what He really wants me to believe for the first time and not what some other person wants me to believe.

And, you, whoever you are, who have been so lied to, controlled, manipulated and spiritually abused by so many, your parents, your siblings, your "pastor", your neighbor, yourself, I dare say so much of what has been preached or taught to you about who God is blantantly flies in the face of His true self.  Trust me, I also thought God was only my great, big judge in the sky, ready to pounce on me whenever I sinned.  I had to beg Him for forgiveness for every single transgression because that's how I thought He rolled.  Was He going to kill me if I didn't confess my sin right away?  I'm serious. 

Where did I get this stuff?

Somehow these thoughts were derived from my upbringing and the many years I spent under the teachings of others, who God is and what the bible said.

So, no, I don't blame atheists for being atheists in many cases.  I only wish to convey my deepest, sincerest thought that I believe there truly is a God and the one portrayed to you is not Him and never will be.  I truly believe there is a Jesus, the Son of God, that came to die for us and redeem us because He loved us.  And, yes, I believe that His sacrifice for the world on the cross in love for us is the real deal and I do believe it can heal the most wounded souls or any soul upon the earth.  The real and true Jesus I know can heal you.  He totally healed me and brought me back to a place where I desired to also know God better.  Get to know the real Him and, I assure you, everything you have been told or most of what you have been told about Him and His father just isn't true.

Atheism won't heal you, but I can't blame you for trying.        


Becky said...

I hear ya. I don't blame the atheists either but true freedom is only in Christ. For some reason, no matter how many things about Christianity I question I always come back to this fact: God is good.

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LJS said...

I think you may have atheism all wrong. I don't feel cheated in any way or wronged in any way. I don't feel lied to or like punishment is all Christianity has to offer. I'm not angry at religious people or at religion in general (my best friend is vehemently Christian), but I do often see this line of explanation. It seems to be a common mischaracterization of atheists used often to attempt to find common ground. (Not to imply that we don't have any. I think most of our common ground can be found in general moral principles.) As a philosopher, I've studied religion and metaphysics extensively, and I don't feel I have any misconceptions about who God and Jesus really are. It is my understanding that they really are often-but-not-always admirable characters who exist in a book. (And please don't take offense to that. Some of the people I respect the most are fictional.)

I simply do not believe any of the supernatural phenomena associated with religion. I do not believe in a creator, savior, or "higher power" of any kind. It just isn't something I find plausible. I don't outright reject the importance of (most of) the moral code put forth by Christianity; there just is nothing in me that believes the story itself is factual in nature.

Most importantly, what prompted me to post a reply at all is the notion that something can or cannot "save" or "heal" me. From what? What I'd really like people to recognize is that I'm not in need of rescue or repair from anything simply because I don't believe in a god. I'm not suffering. I'm not unhappy. I'm not missing anything. I'm not a bad person (unfortunately, another common misconception of atheists).

Please don't feel sorry for me. I'm no more pitiful than any other random stranger. Can't we just agree to disagree?

Deb Paul said...

I hear you loud and clear, LJS. You have made your particular stance very clear and yes, I still don't agree, but you surely are freetochoose what you believe or what you don't because you are freetothink. I guess I should have clarified that I surely don't believe that all atheists form their views only from being spurned or burned in an ultra-religious or "Christian", spiritually abusive environment. I was speaking more to those who have become atheists as a direct result of being thrown into these environments or raised in them. LJS, I have no doubt that you are what you say you are, a morally conscientious person, leading what you perceive to be a completely fulfilled life. I personally would feel amiss dismissing the one who I believe made me. I do believe all mankind are sinners in need of remission of their own sin. I believe for myself that Jesus offers the ability through His Spirit to attain a morality that I may not obtain on my own, a guidance not previously afforded me in and of myself, a comfort to me when noone can comfort me and a friend when I feel a soul is nowhere to be seen for me. But yes, we may choose to agree to disagree, and your comments are always welcome here and were very insightful. Thanks for stopping by, LJS.

LJS said...


Thank you for your acceptance.

For what it's worth (now that I understand that you had a specific sub-set targeted), I do think your target audience could benefit greatly from finding out there are people like you who recognize what drove them away in the first place. The few people I've met in that mind-set could stand to have their anger eased by people like you. If only there were more of you around.

Bethany said...

Thank you Deb. I am struggling through some really tough questions raised by patriocentricity [and by the Bible] and it was good to hear this. I don't think I could ever believe that God doesn't exist, or isn't good, but there are just some things that don't sit right with me [ie, commanded Old Testament genocide, the laws governing rape, etc]. It's a very scary place to be, sometimes, when I think that I am actually doubting the infallibility of the Bible.

Cindy Swanson said...

"I truly believe that many atheists throw off anything God or Jesus because they have been invloved in some seriously tainted versions of who God and Jesus really are."

I absolutely agree. Not perhaps the people like LJS who commented above, but many of those who have turned to atheism after being severely wounded by religion.

And since I do believe in God, I believe those who have abused these injured ones will have to answer to Him someday for their misguided and and damaging actions.

Deb Paul said...

Cindy, thank you for validating my point. And tell us, too, how involved you have been in seeing this type of occurence in the IFB circles. Post your blog here, too. I know you have a story to tell in which you may have experienced yourself that would shed some light on this subject. I would love to host your post here on my blog. Let me know if you would like to contribute. Thanks for stopping by, Cindy. You don't know what it means to have validation in this area.

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Violet said...

I wouldn't consider myself an atheist, though I often question the validity of God and other such matters on a regular basis. It's very difficult to trust when you have been lied to on various occasions by other people.